i should stop posting here for now...i...i dunno what to do anymore

where did you go
i miss you so

u dont even know

maybe i should just let you go

maybe i should be alone for some reasons

why im so stupid
when i know im in no place to getting your heart
fml

i just want to see your face

what im doing now
is it wrong or right
i feel im just acting out what my heart wants to do

i just do not have the privilege

so much words yet to be said
so much emotions yet to be shown
im left here all alone
praying for the day you truly understand

cos you deserve so much better

first few days of confinement is tough
but slowly i got thru and out stronger

i have to do it

tml is the day
i still dont know why i cant sleep
but i know my life will be shitty for the next 2 years...
what to say..thats every guy have to go thru

just want u to know

They always say when I'm high I talk cock or rubbish..no I'm speaking what I feel from the bottom of my heart..I don't care what others say..I just want you to know you are always on my mind

give me all your fear
throw it all away
think about the good things
no matter what they say
we'll take tomorow baby yeah
one day at a time

its so wrong of me to do this
but i dont care

I'm free to be whatever I
Whatever I choose
And I'll sing the blues if I want
I'm free to say whatever I
Whatever I like
If it's wrong or right it's alright

Always seems to me
You only see what people want you to see
How long's it gonna be
Before we get on the bus
And cause no fuss
Get a grip on yourself
It don't cost much

Free to be whatever you
Whatever you say
If it comes my way it's alright
You're free to be wherever you
Wherever you please
You can shoot the breeze if you want

i miss you
but you dont seem the same way i do

just 1 look at you and im very contented

i know whatever i do
my place will never be in your heart
but this is what i want to do
i just wanna show you what im made of
no one is outta my league

You are independent
You know what you want
You are matured
You fight for what you believe
You don't care what others say

Yea alot more things wanna say about you but dunno how to put them to words

i suck
no one wants to be with me
even if im really sincere

im not the type "cant eat grapes then claim the grapes are sour"
its just i dunno why things are so materialistic and realistic

my body feels young but my mind is very old

i dont know how to address u like how others do

theres no need to confess if the feeling is mutual

oh yea baby

i always check my hp for ur msg everytime i wake up...but im not getting any..cos u dont even know how much i want to see u everytime i wake up

i always do everything with my heart
when i fall for you..i fall so deep i dunno who i am anymore

i longed for a date so much
but even if i really get a date
i also dunno what to do during the date
im a loser

This is totally WTF

i really miss those times we had together..even if its just as simple sending you home

some of the hardest things to do is being honest about your feelings

its the choices we made that makes us who we are

im so sick of being myself

yea no one understands me
where others could understand other

nobody knows what im facing now

You are so precious I'm just afraid what I saw just now might happen to you in the future cos u don't see it coming

really dont like eating with my father...everything eat like rush aeroplane like that..i know it because of his work train him to eat that fast...but can we just eat slowly like having a real family dinner?? not hate him is dont like how he eat..really dont like gobbling up my dinner in 10mins just to get away...but he is still my father..and i will not hate him or whatever...

sidetrack: sometimes i feel his this kind of "rush" genes are inherited to me..we both like to get things done asap..but not all things are to be done asap...maybe its a good point and also a bad point...but whatever i accept who i am cos im his son afterall



nb somethings it just dont makes any sense to me

today alot thing happen..

a big hole in my pocket..
bought a new pc..
super fast speed and wont lag..
totally love it

i always wanted to taste the feeling of being in love
guess im too ugly and ugly
makes me feel i totally dont deserve anyone
people are really mean and scary
everything is just a fucking lie
FUCK

Don't you know that I just can't do without you?

I miss you

im free to be whatever i, whatever i choose

im glad i have my bros around me...dont worry..i am not emo...just lost...puzzled...awkward about everything...its not im trying to let things be as it is...its how the way life works makes me think that the ground between everyone of us is seperating and makes me feel insecure and makes me feel like a person who dont give a fuck about anything...

i saw a watch today very very chio

but very very chio also the price

whatever like i typing to myself

his fucking not emokid

i dont know what to do anymore

what more i can say

Sadly I can't find any words to describe how special u are to me

im 真心
but dont have 信心

why u are always so good to everyone and forgot being good to yourself

i cant change you for sure
but i hope you know its for your own good

Just do it
No thinking required

I hope by the time comes
I will act according what my heart tells me
It just take a small step
The rest is up to the other party to accept or reject

Sorry to all bros and sis make them scold worry me...I really dunno what to do..I'm realize I'm always afraid of things..whether I'm good anot..I'm afraid that I lose my friends when I'm enlisted..not say as in lose them in a night..maybe over time..I really enjoy being in their group..but I'm scared time will fade us all out..it's a cruel truth..I'm scared and lost that few days..lost of being me in right now and what I'm about to become in future..I love you peoples..u guys are like crayons that color my life..especially red..yes you are the red that brought warmth

you got my heart beating so fast and hurt so much at the same time

someone please tell me these aint true

I don't know how to face you anymore

Why do I think so much everytime u give me that look

love and hate
angels and demons
truth and lies
black and white

A official personal day off for myself

You don't know how much you mean to me

I wish I could live life in the big movie screen

This place will be kept in the dark till the day light prevails