u have your own life
i have my own life
we will never be together

i still miss you

im always right here when you need me
why didnt you come to me when you were troubled?

i had this picture with me for 4 months in tekong and now everywhere i go

you were my motivation for that period of time and now
i missed you from that day i left bliss
hard times dont last with you in my mind
i just want to see you
i dont care how others judge you or me
im still glad im able to see you frequently
im afraid i might not be able to see you again when bliss close
just wanna make full use of my time with you
as long as you dont feel irritated by my presence

nights and sleep tight jeolyn, sweetdreams

tired..
wish you could hear me calling to you
nights my dear

this feeling is back
as always

i want to hug you
protect you from all the hurtful things in this world

you just dont seem to know how much im afraid of losing you
afraid of bad stuff that mught happen to you
and i cant be there for you

i hate it when people say things ugly to you
like saying things that are disrespectful even though you may be bff
i know you are very open to those kind of topics
but have you ever though for yourself?
you are a girl, you should be treated with respect cos i want to protect you
hope you can feel what im trying to imply here

i always jog around pungol park
hoping to get a chance to see you

i always hope i will not make the first step to jog in the park
but i broke my promise
and i will always see you
so much warmth in my heart and wounds open when i see you

tell me why my feeling for you is like that?
perhaps you will say "its not me, its you"

you know what?
im dying to recieve your sms everyday
im dying to wait for you ask me out
although im in NS now 8am-5pm daily
even if its just a short meet up at town with others to see you
it just hurts to see you are outside with them without me

i feel pointless dragging myself thruout this months
all i get was being hurt again and again
yea..fav quote from my encik "standing on the road like prostitute waiting to get fuck is it?!!!"

what i can do to pull myself out from all this unwanted pain?
i seriously dunno
maybe i just need more work to divert my attention from you
i always hope i will never come back to you
but i always do
the feeling being neglected,forgotten,unwanted,last to come in your mind,watching you walk away is like stepping on my heart again and again..

i know there are many good girls out there
why give up whole forest over a tree
cos what i see in you is what i cant see in other girls
i love the way you look at me
i love the way you listen to me
i love the way you dress up
i love the way you reply me even though it may seem to fu yan me
i love the time we had even though its very short and hurts after that
i love your smile which brighten everyone mood
i love the cute handsigns you created

you look good in anything to me..even with those old specs you had.

you are a gem to me and i cant bear to let you go

what more i can do to let you know how much you mean to me

i still dont understand why
every little thing i do in the past is not acknowledge
but every little thing other people do will be acknowledge
guess im too ugly to be acknowledge

no point stay here waiting eh?
i feel so hurt everyday

i feel dam hurt...dam pain..why must i do this to myself...you dont even know...im not blaming you..its just me...im always have to find out whats happening by myself and no ones tell me unless i ask..always last to know..hurts even more if you tell me you thought i know...

sometimes i feel its pointless to do certain stuff..i cant see what other people see in doing that..conclude that i dont fucking belong there..all these fucking years..ive been wasting my life on them..falling for someone who will never know while im in pain..for fuck?!

last night was terrible...i feel all these while..or years..ima a fucking loser...transparent...maybe i should just rot and fucking die..am i even worthy a second of your life to be concern about?

i hope you wont found this blog..cos its the only place i pour out my feelings for you...

haizz...i feel so lost without you..stoned..with you i can be myself...you have the special juice to make me smile...i want to stroke your hair to sleep..look you in the eye knowing im here for you...so much i want to do with you..i need you.

what is it like to get a hug from a girl
what is it like to give a hug to a girl

what is it like to hold your hand and forget everything else
what is it like to have you to travel with me

'to love someone doesnt mean you have to own them'

tis is what i think

u once told me i can like anyone including you
but now im falling for you so deep
i dont know which is which

looks like im just the hi-bye friend
cant it be more?

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doing it

i always see some sadness behind your smile
and i cant do anything turn that sadness to happyness
i feel so far away

i feel so distracted the whole day
your face, you just keep running in my mind

i know i cant have you..thats a fact..im so selfish idiot

please tell me it just a stupid dream

if i had you
i want to bring you go around the world
watch the night sky full of stars together
hug you when you are cold
morning and goodnight smses
hold your hand like a little child
look you in the eye and kiss you
cook our meals together

everything you and i we could do

guess its just me being to naive and selfish

i dont care about anyone
i only want you

i feel like im losing you

Aren't memories supposed to fade?
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go
Didn't think it'd be this hard
Should be strong, movin' on but I see you
Sometimes I try to hide what I feel inside
And I turn around, you're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Maybe I regret everything I said
No way to take it all back, yeah
Now I'm on my own, how I let you go
I'll never understand